Love, CharenLeigh

S-stop

E-evaluate

L-learn

F-fulfill

Self awareness. Self identity. Self care.

What do you know about yourself?

Learning about myself and becoming aware of what my true issues and problems were was the hardest reality check I have ever had. But that is exactly what I needed; a reality check.

I knew I was sad, I knew something just didn’t feel right. I was living off of the dream that one day I would be happy again. I avoided people, because in my head I thought that maybe they were the reason I couldn’t find happiness. I laid in bed for days, cancelled any and all appointments; I couldn’t bear to let anyone see me like this.

What is wrong with me? I started questioning my own existence. I could not figure out what I did wrong to end up in this pit. And that is exactly what I was in, a pit of straight despair.

I had subconsciously decided to wollar around in this pit of sadness and despair. Not a thing seemed to work out for me, all the bad just came raining down. I had pushed my friends away, put on a mask for my family, barely made it to my job, and I cried almost 12 out of every 24 hours I was presented. Life just sucked. I blamed any and everything but myself. I had allowed the devil to get me down, I had allowed all my thoughts to be negative. I had allowed myself to wollar around in this pit until I was stuck.

Then one day I decided I was done, I could not do any of it anymore. I could not live another day feeling like that. Thinking that I may never reach the level of happiness I wanted out of life; but thank you Jesus for the reality check!

I started with prayer and “I’m happy because…” daily challenge. I was ready for a complete life change, and I refused to ever go back down that road again. I made myself a promise to fight until I could smile again.

To this day, I still fight to never fall back into that pit, to never feel that way again. The devil is always working, and life still gives me unfair circumstances.

But 12 months later and here I am, smiling and happy because of no other reason than being alive!

Below I included some little “get me throughs” and a self care challenge I myself completed::